In Which Emily Disagrees With Very Clever People on NPR

I was trying to fall asleep while listening to the NPR Books podcast, which this past week featured an item on Shakespeare’s sonnets. Morning Edition interviews Clinton Heylin, the author of a new book about the publication of the sonnets who posits that Shakespeare never meant for the sonnets to be published, which I was willing to believe, since I know very little about Shakespeare, and most academic Shakespeare-speculation goes over my head. But then Heylin went on to suggest that the reason Shakespeare didn’t want the sonnets to be published is because the poet expresses love for a “fair youth” in many of the sonnets, and that would have been, he said, a “criminal offense” in Elizabethan England.

Well. I don’t know about that, and I was so skeptical I actually got out of bed at 3am to write this. I say this with the heavy disclaimer that I’ve read only some of the sonnets, that I don’t know a whole lot about Shakespeare and his time, and that, well, I’m a college student with not a whole lot of knowledge about anything. I’m not equipped to take on the Shakespeare speculators. But this suggestion struck me as dubious because homosexuality didn’t exist in Shakespeare’s time. The idea of sexual acts called “sodomy” or something similar that may have been criminalized at the time (I don’t know for sure what laws were on the books under the Tudors or the first half of the Stuarts, but I’m betting there were laws against non-procreative sex) would likely have existed in a completely separate dimension from the idea of a close male friendship in terms of the Shakespeare-era social world. Mind you, I’m talking out of my ass, but I think that even if same-sex sexual relationships were going on covertly, I’m not sure that it would have occurred to the Elizabethans as a culture to make the leap to “criminal offenses” from the expressions of love/affection/desire/etc. in the sonnets and therefore to condemn Shakespeare for having written them—and thus, it isn’t entirely accurate for Heylin to say that Shakespeare’s love for the youth in question would have been a criminal offense, if it did exist.

I say this because I’m thinking about much later writers, like Whitman, whose expressions of same-sex desire went over the heads of many people, such as the contemporary censors who criticized expressions of heterosexual lust but were much less critical of the Calamus poems. Indeed, if I recall correctly, it wasn’t until some time after their publication that the Calamus poems got buried—and I’m fuzzy on my dates, but that might have been after the trial of Oscar Wilde. Wilde’s trial equated “the love that dare not speak its name” with the term “sodomite,” and neatly coincided with the turn-of-the-century beginnings of the psychological understanding of homosexuality that the German sexologists were getting up to. After Wilde’s trial (or so the folklore has it), young men stopped walking arm and arm on the street, as was previously the fashion. Wilde’s trial, to the best of my knowledge, was what made same-sex affection actually seem “homosexual,” and therefore, according to the standards of the day, immoral.

I’ve been thinking a lot recently about how far it’s possible to go in labeling Writer X “homosexual” or “gay” or saying that Writer Y’s work addresses queer themes or things like that. I’m sure that quite a lot of very important people have written on this issue, and maybe one day I’ll read what they’ve written and figure it out. But I do know that I have an inclination to place writers like Whitman in a historical narrative tracing literary expressions of same-sex desire, and maybe it’s legitimate to do that when his poetry was embraced as a cultural rallying point of some early queer movements, and when legitimately gay literary figures such as Ginsberg cited it as inspiration. But then cases like Shakespeare, which made me sit bolt upright in bed at 3 in the morning to go, “Hey, you can’t make the leap from same-sex affection to implying homosexuality; that didn’t exist in the 16th century!” remind me that I need to resist the tendency to assume that as many figures as possible were gay or bisexual or queer or what have you.

They also remind me of a key tenet of “doing history,” which will probably be very important to remember as I go on to do a degree in said discipline: you can’t impose the cultural frameworks of the present upon the past. Maybe Heylin was just trying to render the context of Shakespeare’s poetry more understandable to the modern NPR listener, and actually maybe I’ve just got all my facts wrong and Heylin’s explanation really does make sense. He’s certainly far more qualified to pronounce upon the subject than I am. But hey: to me, in this case “doing history” means recognizing that putting sexual acts and affection/desire together into a modern sexual-object-choice model of homosexuality or bisexuality or queerness is a distinctly modern phenomenon, and one that doesn’t work retroactively.

And I also have to wonder why we can’t just appreciate what Shakespeare had to say without wondering what his personal stake in things was. His words wouldn’t have captured Western civilization for the last 400-some years if they didn’t have a certain universality outside of his personal experience.

Studying Ginsberg

If you know me at all, you’ll know how much I love Allen Ginsberg’s poetry. As I wrote in an essay once, the day I read “Howl” I was head over heels in love with the language of a man who captures the simultaneous exuberance and insecurity and exultation and insanity of youthfulness. The man who foreshadowed the counterculture through his poems of the mid-’50s and who did so with such beautiful words.

I’m discovering Ginsberg again this year, because I’m picking up a little queer theory as I go along, and I’ve started rereading a lot of the poems and seeing stuff I never saw. Taking my Gender and Sexuality in Modern America class, and reading all of Chauncey’s Gay New York, has given me a much wider understanding, too, of the world Ginsberg was living in—it’s relatable, for sure, but you can’t just assume that his experience would have been like someone in today’s minority sexuality communities. It was a difficult time to be gay, and yet the communities were there, and they were supportive—and all this comes through in the poetry, as he both praises his many loves from Neal Cassady to the boy he sees walking by on a street in Paterson, and wrestles with his inner turmoil, feeling as if he should get married (to a woman) and have children.

And so I’m sitting here, it’s 2am, I’m rereading the poems he wrote in San Francisco in the mid-’50s, the ones around the time of “Howl”—the best period of his output, in my opinion. And I’m filling in the gaps, looking up Whitman allusions, just now tracking down a Catullus allusion, looking at the Latin, trying to see connections. And I’m wondering why, exactly, I’m doing this; why I made a pilgrimage to Paterson last month, why I keep chasing Allen Ginsberg. First of all, he’s just a dead writer. Just like any other dead writer. How many dead writers have I ever read, who weren’t the least bit special? And second of all, I’m going to study history, not literature. I agonized through an essay on Milton today, hating every sentence I spit out about the literary techniques Milton uses, and trying desperately to relate it all to British history where at least I’m on solid ground. I don’t want to close-read Ginsberg. I just want to understand him. I want to pick up on all the allusions (and the liberal arts education is helping; I totally bet Ginsberg wrote an essay on Milton too, when he was a Columbia English major) and more than that I want to understand what Ginsberg was feeling. I want to know why he was writing the things he was writing, and that does fall into the remit of history—understanding the culture he lived in is absolutely necessary, because writing reacts to the times and the circumstances of the writer’s life. Doesn’t it?

So can one study literature as history? Should one? Is that what I’m doing, as I wade through the poems? I’m not sure. Probably someone could tell me; probably someone has written a dissertation on this stuff, and the answers to all my questions are in some library’s off-campus warehouse. (I discharge dissertations every day to be sent off to Princeton’s warehouse at my library job.) But after writing two essays about Ginsberg this school year, after growing my collection of Ginsberg books, after reading Whitman and Blake and Kerouac and now, apparently, Catullus in order to understand Ginsberg, I’m starting to wonder. Someone once told me that in order to make it as an academic, I need to find a set of texts that I’m so passionate about I could spend the rest of my life with. Is this it? Is this my set of texts? Is it more than some adolescent flirtation, some phase that every teenager passes through when the counterculture seems swoon-worthy? And if it really is something that I could study and study and never tire of (and if it hasn’t been written on overmuch, which I’m sure it has), how do I do this? Is there a place for studying literature as history? Is there a place for me in the world of history, a place where I can do this without literary theory?

In truth, it’s certainly a little early to say—I’m a college freshman, FFS. I think I just kind of want to be reassured that I’m not wasting my time, that there is some redeeming value to reading so much Ginsberg, and to taking his writing so seriously. People tend to dismiss Ginsberg as tacky, as not a very good poet. I want to know that I’m not wasting my time and my cultural pretensions to be so passionate about a man who so perfectly reflected his time and his culture—and singlehandedly altered them as well.

What I Have Done Today, and Why I Love College

1. Woke up.
2. Futzed around on the Internet.
3. Showered, dressed, went to lunch; read a chapter of George Chauncey’s Gay New York.
4. Went to Small World and bought an iced coffee; checked out the Labyrinth sale tables.
5. Futzed around on the Internet.
6. Finally got off my ass and trekked (OMG, SO FAR) to the library, where there is air conditioning (I should point out that it’s almost 90 degrees out).
7. Ensconced myself on a third-floor windowsill, looking south.
8. Read two pages about post-9/11 immigration policy.
9. Futzed around on the Internet/wrote this blog post.

Yeah, I’m not the world’s most productive student. There’s a lot of Internet-futzing involved. But what could be more wonderful than sitting in the window on a beautiful day in a Disneyland of grass and trees and old buildings, reading? Sometimes I feel like a dork because I don’t do more traditional undergraduate things, like partying and having a social life. But, well, an environment that does accord me the opportunity to lead a nerdy life? That’s paradise too. I have my doubts about Princeton all the time, especially when I read the latest news about NOM or can’t work in my room on Saturday night because of the noise. But I’m dreading the end of the semester all the same, because it means leaving collegiate paradise, leaving my safe, tiny town; Sundays of Rocky dining hall, Nassau St. and Firestone. An Ivy League education is insular and isolating and it means you have to try very hard not to be put out of touch with reality. But I love it all the same, in part for reasons I can’t even describe. Days like this make me want to stay in the ivory tower forever.

Ginsberg: who passed through universities with radiant cool eyes, hallucinating Arkansas and Blake-light tragedy among the scholars of war… Relevant maybe?

Twelfth Night

I saw a quite over-the-top, not terribly fantastic, production of Twelfth Night tonight, but I’m not going to waste time reviewing it–primarily because I’m typing this on my iPod, which is kind of a pain.

What I wanted to say is that Twelfth Night is my favorite Shakespeare, and not just because of the gender issues. What I like is the nuance in the plot, and the acceptance that even in a comedy, not everyone’s fortunes will turn out well. Of course, all is roses for Viola, Orsino, Olivia, and Sebastian (which this production made eminently clear by showering the stage–and audience–with stupid rose petals), but this isn’t the case for a lot of characters. Most famous for being “most notoriously wronged” is Malvolio, of course, who by the end of the play is a highly sympathetic character. But Antonio is often overlooked, and there’s an undeniable “love that dare not speak its name” quality to his unrequited adoration for Sebastian, 300 years before the phrase. And there’s Feste, left standing alone onstage at the end. Where do all these odd folks fit in the happily-ever-after scheme of normalcy that the traditional twin marriages enforce?

Were I a better literary scholar, I’d posit why Shakespeare made that choice–but as it is I think we’ve now successfully learned why exactly this is my favorite Shakespeare.

Kink For All New York City

It’s been ten days now since I went to Kink For All New York City, the first of what will hopefully be a series of sexuality-related “unconferences” run along an open-source, democratic model. Basically, KFANYC was a conference—a vehicle for members of the various sexuality communities in New York to come together, talk, and learn from each other. Quite a lot of people presented about quite a lot of different things, sometimes simultaneously, so I wasn’t able to see everything. I chose to attend, in particular, presentations which focused on the younger generation of sexuality activists (like myself!) and on addressing questions about defining identity, coming out, and how all this gets worked out in an increasingly technologically networked and therefore public arena. My own presentation, which I titled “The Politicization of the Closet,” dealt with similar issues, raising questions about when it is necessary to come out and whether one must do so to be an activist. (pdf of my notes, if you’re curious what I said. There’s an audio recording too, but I’m a little too embarrassed by how I sound on recordings to link to it).

That’s all a serious reduction/abridgement of what actually went on at KFANYC on March 8, 2009. But, given that this is both a personal blog and a vaguely academic-oriented blog, I do want to mention what I found most personally rewarding about the unconference. I’ve been to conferences before, sure, but this was my first time presenting, my first time “giving a talk.” As someone so steeped in academic culture, this was kind of an important milestone for me. My parents and most other adults I know have been giving talks at conferences all my life, and doing the same was a big indication to me that I’m becoming an adult. The fact that the talk was by no means a failure also suggested to me that it’s something I can do, and that in 10 years’ time I’ll be able to do the same thing at a conference in my academic discipline, or indeed to teach a class.

But perhaps I overstress the academic aspect of KFANYC’s relevance to me, because I think that a lot of what was exciting about it is the way that the format combines academic and non-academic modes of talking about sex and sexuality. The “conference” is an academic model in a way that many existing modes of social interaction for sexuality groups aren’t, but this conference didn’t presume any academic background or qualifications and didn’t have the same standards of format and presentation that academic conferences do. I, as a first-year college student, was able to participate, but so were people who didn’t finish high school and people with graduate degrees. KFANYC very nearly, I think it’s safe to say, made academia accessible to everyone, which is an important thing that those of us entrenched in the ivory tower should be doing. Academic modes are a sort of subculture of analyzing and presenting information, but that doesn’t mean they have to be elitist—just different from, say, journalism, or casual conversation. I think that as much as KFANYC bridged gaps between disparate sexuality communities, it bridged gaps between different registers of discussion, taking academese down a peg while applying a theoretical and philosophical level to more casual conversations.

All around, it was one of the most positive experiences I’ve had recently, both personally and communally validating. If you’re interested in learning more about the Kink For All model or even organizing one in your city, do check out the website.

On Kinsey and His Methodology

We read excerpts from Sexual Behavior of the Human Male and Sexual Behavior of the Human Female, Alfred Kinsey‘s meisterwerks (sp?), in my sex and gender class, and I was trying to remember where I’d read the Ginsberg reference that led me to believe once and for all that Kinsey’s methodology was flawed. Well, seeing that I own about as many books by or about Allen Ginsberg as the Princeton University Library (okay, that was slightly hyperbolic, but only slightly), it didn’t take that long. This is from p. 66 of Bill Morgan’s biography of Ginsberg, I Celebrate Myself:

[Herbert] Huncke seemed to know everyone worth knowing on the street, from criminals to policemen. In fact, in 1945 Professor Alfred Kinsey was canvassing people in the Angler Bar as research for his pioneering study of American sexual practices. He recognized Huncke as someone who could secure interesting subjects for his study, and he offered Huncke a few dollars to bring him people willing to talk anonymously about their sex lives. Huncke was more than willing to oblige. He brought Ginsberg, Burroughs, and Kerouac to Kinsey for study and their interviews were integrated into his monumental study, Sexual Behavior in the Human Male, published in 1948. Allen’s responses undoubtedly were the most uninteresting of the group, since he was still a virgin.

Yeah, that last sentence is a bit funny—but I think the prevailing attitude is “come on!” Huncke was a transient drug addict who knew his way around the underworld and counterculture of ’40s New York. He slept with both men and women, and he brought Kinsey the trio—Kerouac, Burroughs, and Ginsberg. Kerouac, though he regarded himself as straight, had slept with men before; Burroughs, despite his common-law marriage, enjoyed his North African boys; Ginsberg hadn’t quite decided what he was in 1945, but his long relationship with Peter Orlovsky kind of turned him into a gay icon. And now let’s think: if you want to do a scientific study on the “sexual behavior of the human male,” and you want to extrapolate statistics such as what percent of the male population has had sex with a man, does it really make a lot of sense to seek out like the four men in New York who would actually admit to it?

Yeah, Kinsey was still ground-breaking, I think. But it was more in what he was willing to study than in his actual findings.

On a semi-unrelated note, I wonder if I, college freshman that I am, am really entitled to pontificate on quasi-intellectual matters when I haven’t the education or broad base of general knowledge to draw any informed conclusions. Your thoughts on the validity of my pontifications are always welcome. There’s a comments box below.

Reading Quote of the Day (2009-02-17)

I was going to call this a “fun fact,” and then I realized it wasn’t that fun. From Margot Canaday, “Building a Straight State: Sexuality and Social Citizenship under the 1944 GI Bill”:

Much less commonly remarked upon [when considering GI benefits] is a 1945 Veterans Administration ruling that denied G.I. Bill benefits to any soldier with an undesirable discharge “issued because of homosexual acts or tendencies.” The G.I. Bill deserves consideration by historians because it was the first federal policy that explicitly excluded gays and lesbians from the economic benefits of the welfare state.

WOW. From a history of sexuality perspective (a subdiscipline I’m growing ever more passionate about), that’s an incredibly interesting fact.

One of the main themes we’re learning about in the class I did that reading for (Gender and Sexuality in Modern America) is the idea of “institutionalized heterosexuality.” This refers to the trend, as the American state got ever larger in the 20th century, to enshrine the traditional nuclear family in law and exclude LGBT folks from the benefits given to the traditional nuclear family. This can include more obvious things, like marriage law, but also things like how postwar social security benefits were initially distributed in a way that favored a family where the husband was the breadwinner and the wife was dependent on him. This is something that it would never have occurred to me to consider in a million years… which is why, I suppose, I’m going to college and am strongly considering studying history.

Okay. I’ve got about 80 more pages of reading to go.

Reading Quote of the Day (2009-02-15)

I find myself reading 100+ pages a day for my classes, far more even than my investment of time in our country’s college dailies, so I expect my reading is deserving of its own semi-regular feature on this blog as well.

From Roger Rinke and Rodney Stark, The Churching of America, 1776-1990:

Indeed, how could demographers, and especially their graduate students, fail to notice a whole shelf of books of religious statistics located alongside the regular census volumes? [emphasis mine]

Oh, those pesky grad students, never doing their advisors’ work for them well enough.

Intrusion of academia upon my life

I was writing a ramble on my life’s trajectory in the past four or five years, and in the context (don’t ask. It’s complicated), a phrase from “Howl” came to mind. That phrase is “the nitroglycerine shrieks of the fairies of advertising,” and it’s rather odd that I thought of it, because the context had nothing to do with nitroglycerin, shrieks, fairies, or advertising. So quite odd.

But, see, the problem is that I was thinking of “fairies” with a totally different connotation than the one that I’m pretty sure Ginsberg intended. In my sex and gender class this week, we learned what “fairy” meant to urban folks in the early 20th century: it connoted a certain homosexual prototype. Before we (as American culture) got used to conceiving of homosexuality as being defined by whom you’re attracted to and have sex with, it was defined according to gender characteristics. Therefore, a man who dressed and behaved in what was considered an effeminate manner was classified as a “fairy,” and was considered to be “other” or “deviant,” though were often tolerated as an amusing novelty in places like New York. On the other hand, the men who picked up and had sex with fairies, because they were assumed to be penetrators as opposed to penetratees, were considered “normal” men—they weren’t stigmatized or considered “other.”

So now that we know what fairies were in the popular culture of Ginsberg’s period (basically think of the most offensive effeminate gay male stereotype you can, then import it to the early 20th century), we’re stuck. What can they possibly have to do with my high-school experience in suburban California, far removed as it is from the Bowery and the Village?

Well see, this is the thing. Because before my history class taught me what it meant to be a “fairy” in 1940s New York, and perhaps before my latest close-reading craze, it would never have occurred to me to get so stuck on the meaning of this word that I couldn’t finish the ramble that brought it to mind. I’m glad that I’m learning to think this way, and accumulating the knowledge that enables me to do so. This is, in part, what college is about—and I love every bit of it.

You Learn Something New Every Day

… and I learn a ton of new things every day, actually, because I’m a college student at, if I do say so myself, an excellent university, taking some mind-blowing and challenging classes. But today was one of those days overarched by a big academic concept that you know is going to stay with you for years to come, and that academic concept was this: word choice is vital.

This afternoon I had two “firsts”: my first-ever precept (Princeton calls discussion sections “precepts,” because it is full of itself) and my first one-on-one conference with my journalism professor, a very eminent professional writer whose name I won’t drop because that’s just too crass. I was nervous to the point of nausea for both. The precept was not only my first at this university, it was for my English class, and English is a discipline I am neither confident in nor good at. I am very much in awe of my journalism professor, who absolutely deserves all his renown, and was apprehensive as to how he would evaluate my writing.

To spare you the suspense, I must have come off as an idiot in precept—I was right; I can’t close-read literary passages for shit—and I was blown away by the fact that my journalism professor gave me some positive comments on my assignment. But the theme that connected both idiocy at literary analysis and an apparent ability to write decently was the utmost importance of minutiae.

As you might know, if you’ve studied literature at all, and as I discovered today, an author’s very specific word choices are absolutely vital in determining the meaning of a passage and the author’s intentions with it. Since my course is in English literature, I can mention that there are hundreds of thousands of words in the English language, and since my course is in English literature in the 14th-18th centuries, I can say that English has undergone some seismic shifts in vocabulary, grammar, pronunciation, orthography and everything else since Alfred the Great’s scholars codified what was then called “englisc” in the 9th century. And so there is an incredible corpus of English words to draw from—some of them, since my precept was discussing Chaucer, extinct today—each of which could be employed to subtly alter what can be gleaned from the text. I’m not used to reading literature in this way: as a proto-historian (that is to say, I will probably be a history major in 18 months), I usually read literature, if not for pleasure, to gain insight into a particular time period or culture. I’m unused to examining it unto itself. It was an alien and deeply challenging experience for me, because I came into the class with so many things to say and then found that very few of them were at all useful, as we pored closely over the meaning of each word in a single paragraph. And all of those words suddenly grew more significant to me, more powerful. I was daunted by their potency and my complete inability to manage them.

If that weren’t enough, immediately following that ordeal I ascended a rather odd set of stairs to the frigging turret of a building I’d never before visited to meet with my journalism professor. This went considerably better, because the craft of writing is something I can claim to have some instinctive understanding of—more so than literary analysis, anyway. Since it was just us (which is totally ungrammatical but I don’t know how to rephrase it), and since I respect his talent so much, I didn’t feel any more hopelessly insignificant than I should have. And since the overall conceit of my piece was solid enough, we were able to focus on those same minutiae. My professor pointed out some words I’d thought deeply about and some words I hadn’t, addressed my punctuation choices, and questioned the meanings imparted by one way of expressing an idea versus another. It was as if he and I were applying those same close-reading tactics to my work, except instead of being a dead writer whose intent we can only speculate about, I was right there next to him, and I knew what my intent was. I was able to ground my understanding of the words in reality.

But in any case, the point of all this rambling (which, the WordPress word count tells me, is going on for far too long) is that it is vitally important to examine things incredibly closely. There is deep significance—academically speaking, at least; I couldn’t tell you about real life—to all these details, and I should be paying more attention to them, whether to learn how to think in more disciplines than my chosen one, or whether to aid me in becoming better at this writing passion of mine, such that it may become a skill or even a talent. And, moreover, it pays for me to throw myself into my work, doing more than just glossing over my readings or hacking out a paper or an article. It pays for me to hone every detail of everything I do, out of concern not just for my future as writer or academic, but also in the interests of my own pride and self-worth.